I Don’t Know What To Do Anymore.

I Don’t Know What To Do Anymore.

Viewers Beware! This is not for the faint of heart…
I’m a 16 year old female who faced issues no other teen like me should have ever faced. Around the year 2015, I was rescheduled into classes against my will that separated me from my 7th grade friends. My parents were clueless and thought it was a part of life. I got a neck injury found to be whiplash by a neurosurgeon. This was the result of a sports accident. As the year went on I was bullied by female and male class troublemakers. I ended up getting disorganized and piling up my homework in a locker. Aspirin was even illegally found there when I was first reassigned to one and a teacher kept me from being blamed. I turned down a friend for joining their homeschool at 14. A year later a teacher I never met before died at my middle school. The classmates who faced that were devastated, but I didn’t know how bad that was at the time. I’ve witnessed myself and others get harassed/ assaulted since age 13. All incidents were occurring in school and outside the family. Around the end of 8th grade I walked with a boy who debated murder of a relative. Sports has been difficult but my dream. I’ve lost connections and security that was once present in my family at about 15. Only now am I recovering from a dark past and realizing that it’s not too late to forgive people now that I’ve hallucinated about nightly emotional/ psychological abuse. My mother offered professional help from a therapist. I had declined due to issues that have to do to self- perceived attractiveness and the fact it was over a diagnosis. My parents are giving me opportunities to communicate and contribute to them as well as giving me further options for college life and free testing opportunities due to our situation for the future. I’ve declined multiple offers for me to move out with strangers or foreign families .Best of wishes!

CONSIDER THIS;

  • Hopelessness can make you feel discouraged and alone. You are strong for making an effort the get help even though this is a difficult time for you.
  • If you’re considering harming yourself in any way or even committing suicide, you should become educated on your options first. You can head to the Teen Central website and click the Learn tab then one of the issues listed here to learn more about what might be bothering you.  You can also click the Help tab and call one of the hotlines to speak to someone who cares.
  • You may benefit tremendously from speaking to a trusted therapist or counselor in person. The right professional can help you understand what’s really bothering you so you can get past your issues and live a normal, happy life.
  • You can try becoming more spiritual. If you commit to this, you’ll likely gain a sense of purpose and meaning that will help you become more understanding of the world around you. On the Teen Central website, click the Learn tab then Spirituality to learn more. Some spiritual activities you may try are meditation, prayer, yoga or attending church services.
  • You can find something positive to focus on. For example, listening to music, reading a book, create art or join a club at school.
  • Repeat positive affirmations to yourself so that you can turn your negative thinking pattern into a positive one.
  • You can take on a responsibility to forget about your issues for a while. This might be adopting a pet from a shelter, getting a part-time job or just doing chores around the house.
  • You could do something positive for our planet by volunteering for a worthy cause. Some ideas are helping the environment, tutoring children or reading to them, or come to someone’s aid at a local hospital. Helping someone else is a great way to make you feel like your life matters because it does.
  • You may learn self-love by respecting yourself. For example, don’t be a people pleaser, exercise regularly and eat healthier foods.
  • You can commit to taking action for a better life by expressing your thoughts and keeping track of any progress in a daily journal.
  • Don’t discount receiving counseling from a professional therapist. You may not feel it is for you right now, but perhaps you may feel differently in the near future.

HELP YOURSELF:

  • What are the most wonderful things you appreciate in this world? How could focusing on these things provide you with some comfort and direction?
  • In what ways could your negative thinking pattern ruin your future?
  • How could a commitment to positivity turn your life around so you can have the life you love and deserve?
  • What are the pros and cons of receiving professional counseling?